I had a girlfriend when I came out. I realized that she was my best friend and that she was in love with me, but I just couldn’t reciprocate the feeling. It was hard and confusing because I really cared about her, and I knew telling her that I finally realized that I was gay would really hurt her. I had to grapple with the fact that my happiness and honesty was more important than telling a lie and keeping her happy.
She was devastated when I told her and didn’t want anything to do with me anymore, but within time she came back around and we’re good friends again. She’s actually going to be in my wedding! Every year it gets easier and easier and I’ve found a wonderful boyfriend who I’m going to marry one day.
It gets better, and it’s always better to be yourself and honest. It’s hard, but it makes you a better person and it’s always worth it in the long run.